You know how you desperately want something and you work so hard and even pray harder to God for it and he ends up not answering your prayer. Yeah, that’s like the worst feeling and that BS statement people always say “every disappointment is a blessing” well that is the most untrue statement ever! Some disappointment are just disappointment. Trust me, I’ve been in situation like this so many times that I am actually beginning to doubt his existence, I already made peace a long time ago that I am not God’s favourite at all but it feels horrible not even being seen by him like do you even know I exist. I sometimes wish I wasn’t born into a strong Christian home that prays a lot and strongly believe that everything should be put in the hands of God because most of the things I’ve put in his hands has never really gone so well. But you know what they say, who am I to question God