Today is a day after my birthday. And just today the job I had hoped on getting for months now I lost it cause I couldn’t raise money to bribe my way in. The clothes I took my savings money to sew against when the job will be announced today, those clothes arrived and are all trash. As I started crying my phone fell and the screen went blank. I took the last money in my accounts to fix the phone issues and my baby sister is saying I shouldn’t cry, our next meal will come from God. Smiles, I am just here surfing the internet with this last data waiting for tomorrow so I can cry again. I’m done trying to fix my life cause the more I do, the more it scatters. This is the second birthday I didn’t celebrate or even get gifts, I thought getting a job will be a birthday gift to myself.