What do you do when your whole life is a mess. I find it so hard to open up to the one I love because I feel ashamed of certain situations in my life. So sometimes I cover up my real self with lies. I’ve got a man who loves me so much and I love him very much too but he doesn’t believe I love him. He doesn’t even trust me because I’m dishonest about somethings. I opened up to him about my real self because he demands full vulnerability and now he doesn’t trust me. I’ve ruined this again! I’m so shattered.