Everyone tells me it’s his loss since the breakup but; His loss but he is happy, his loss but he called me a waste of his time, his loss but I still think why I wasn’t good enough, his loss but I still wonder what I could have done differently, his loss but I begged like my life depended on it. His loss but am the one who has nightmares about him. His loss but I can’t love on even after all this time. His loss but I still won’t let anyone touch me a year later. His loss but I lost my essence. His loss but he already moved on. It’s hard to move on, I’m in pain everyday and he’s living his life like nothing, it’s painful. I wish he knew how bad I fell apart after he ended things. I have cried everyday, I have just never cried this much. I just want it to stop. I have learned the hard way never to love someone more than I love myself. I feel so emty and damaged i dont know what to do. His loss, but my suffering. It’s not fair. I feel so broken i wish i never loved. I’m still in so much pain. My heart. My loss after all