I’ve been celibate and sad for over 9 months, at first it was out of spite for how many times he cheated and made me think I was the reason then it turned into resentment towards men but now celibacy has become a commitment to myself and my God. I’ve never felt so beautiful and intentional about myself until now, it has opened me up to the absolute truth of Gods intentions and the actual purpose of my existence. I wish I gave my life to Jesus Christ earlier.