I have always believed I wouldn’t live to see 30. I’ll be turning 29 in a month and I am disgruntled. I am hoping that I can muster the courage to do what I should have done years ago. My brother is on this platform and will see this confession but won’t know it’s from his sister. I look forward to dying peacefully. I still can’t decide which way to go. Maybe poison or jumping off third mainland bridge. I’m looking for the least painful way. I hope I find peace.