I can’t believe I am about to get another abortion, I just met this guy and even though we want to get married eventually, I am pregnant. He’s saying he doesn’t mind but I don’t have stomach for all the dissapointment it would cause. Besides not minding is not the same as being excited it happened. I really really wish I didn’t have to get rid of it. I feel like I am going to hate the guy and myself after this and just keep crying myself to sleep.