When I got married, everybody told me not to go through my husband’s phone but well I still did. I know my husband’s passcode but he doesn’t know that so sometimes I just check his phone and I always see he’s chatting with random girl but it never really hurt me, it just made me disappointed. I always knew he was an unfaithful man but I guess knowing is different from seeing. I went through his phone today and going to his recently deleted, I see a video he deleted of him receiving a blowjob from a lady and he also made videos of the girl walking naked around the hotel room. Funny enough I watched all the videos and listened to the audio cause I wanted to know what he was saying to her and how it made him feel. You know what hurts is that I gave birth on the 6th and on the 13th my husband was fucking another woman (Tuesday for Tuesday) blessed much. I don’t know how to cry cause the tears won’t come out but my body is taking the pain. I hate that I love him so much, I feel like I don’t even value myself.