‪I don’t know which is more stupid, the fact that I want a sugar daddy but I don’t want to do what sugar babies do and I thought he was cool when we agreed that there will be no sex or the fact that he begged me to sleepover over in his house to watch over his daughter because he had to be somewhere urgent till the next day and I actually believed him but he didn’t go anywhere and I couldn’t go back home, then he came into the room I was in and tried making out with me which I thought (it can’t be that bad since there’s no sex and I want money) and when I tried pushing him off when I couldn’t take it anymore, he didn’t stop and I started crying, he stopped and asked me why and I told him that I don’t want to have sex and he continued saying he’s not gonna have sex with me, I got so scared and I got a panic attack then he got angry and left the room, he thought I was going through some past experience sexual assault trauma (I mean, I didn’t even enjoy sex with someone my age the few times I’ve had it, it’s just too much pain). I couldn’t sleep for the rest of the night and I ran away as soon as the day broke, then he texted me and said “he can’t suffer for what other guys have done to me”, he couldn’t even apologize. I think it’s all my fault, I’ve been reduced to thinking I can make something work with an old man with no wife because I want money. I’ve really failed 😞‬