As a man, I don’t like the life I’m living. I spend my day looking for cheap dopamine through masturbation, food, movie & social media. Worst part is that I’m broke, instead of being motivated by my situation to improve my finances & possibly develop a sense of purpose through it, I would be thinking about how I can end it all so that I won’t have to live like this again. I tried socializing & getting a skill/career so that my life could be filled with something, i quit & ran back to my comfort zone due to the challenges & the fact that it didn’t felt rewarding.