My relationship hasn’t been stable for a while and I’m here because of survival and I’m in a foreign country where I don’t know people and I’m the one supporting myself. I’m still planning how to get the things I can get and leave for good. He has been a nice person since we met but he wants to turn me to a baby mama. He feels he can get another lady to accept his proposal but lately I’ve been battling with anxiety and serious self esteem. I tend to see ladies and think they are better then me. It’s hard to be in a survival state.