I hate that nobody gets to see the soft side of me because I always put up this strong girl facade outside but I’m just a cry baby whenever I’m alone. It’s affecting my relationship with my boyfriend and even my siblings complain. The few times I try to be soft around people, I ended up breaking down and they acted very shocked and didn’t know what to do. Once was with my boyfriend and he started laughing, yet he keeps complaining that I’m too mean and loud, yet whenever I try being soft and kind he makes jest of me. God knows I’m trying so hard to work on myself, I just want to be heard and seen for who I really am deep inside. I’m struggling with so much. I’m not a monster💔