I really tried everything I could mehn. How can you even fix something with someone if the other person doesn’t allow you, but yet says you should fix it. I tried to fix the relationship, I apologized repeatedly for months and months but was told I wasn’t sorry, he wouldn’t agree to a sit down to talk, to a meet up, wouldn’t agree to anything. Just kept on saying I would never be able to change or be a better person, I should hide my head in shame all these because I was disrespectful and toxic. Yea I made mistakes I didn’t cheat not at all but I was toxic and I self reflected and changed. I was genuinely sorry but everything burned. Years, gone. I feel like I wasted the best of me, I don’t feel like doing anything for anyone in any relationship capacity again not to cook not even for anything. Hurts a lot, can’t even trust a man for shit now