It’s been 8 months since we broke up and I have been celibate, I haven’t been with any other man since but I fantasize about my Ex everyday. I don’t want to give myself to just anyone, I order sex toys and I end up not paying cause all I need is a man who is going to explore this body to the fullest. Every part of me is yearning, i can feel my coochie closing in on me, the problem now is I still need my Ex even though thinking about his betrayal makes me hate him the more but he is the only one I think of. Our body understands each other.