I wonder why my love life is complicated. I hardly fall in love but when I love, it’s either the person doesn’t love me back or the relationship won’t end well or I have to suppress the feelings. Last time, I fell in love years ago, I was broken to the point of depression, thank God I am better now.
Backwards to December, I met this guy, we matched and we had a thing, This year, we had some misunderstandings (He gives mixed reactions, when we are together, we enjoy each other’s company but when we are not together, he doesn’t call but he replies my messages and calls. I felt manipulated cause how can you claim you love someone and you don’t check up on them) and we are in our shell. I have tried so hard to forget him for months now, instead situations are worse because now, I am not attracted to any other man, I go on dates but end up getting angry and going back home, No sex (my whole being is being submissive to someone whom I don’t even know if he feels same way or have moved on 😂). My friends said they are suspecting me and that I am being harsh to men. Even when I am working, the more I choke myself with work, the more his thoughts just rush in. God abeg! Is either this feelings vanish or you bring him to me or God please bring me my husband. Honestly, I don’t understand the love in this generation, I don’t do nonchalant love or hard love (why must you pretend or act strong or like you care less to get someone’s attention). Honestly, I am not built for this. I need to leave this country 😞😞