My mum used to be sexually inappropriate around me (she would play with her nipples when I was around her as tho she wanted me to see), it really messed up my mind I somehow developed low self esteem from it and I am ashamed to say this but I used to masturbate to mother- daughter porn videos, I just feel it’s because of the whole abuse. She started this since I was in jss 1 till I started university and I told my dad, she denied but stopped. But I noticed something my dad was sad but he didn’t want to drag it and told me to let it go and my mother made it seem like I was seeing things, now she wants to be close to me but to be honest I just can’t love her, there was a time I wished she will just die astagafurullah