My ex broke up with me one year ago. His reason being that he is younger than I was and he was trying to find himself. Note- he never had a problem with the age difference when we started, he would always tell me how it wasn’t a problem and make me feel comfortable. We were together for 5 years and we were so Inlove and had the most beautiful relationship. He cared for me and I loved him deeply. I was ready to stick with him through absolutely anything. Now I started to notice that he would link up with females and delete the messages. One day I went through his whatsapp and saw messages between him and his friend talking about women, their bodies, breasts and how they would taste. They had sex with whoever those people were. I was broken, devastated. My baby that I used to brag to everyone about! Wow. I asked him, he tried to gaslight me into thinking I didn’t know what I saw. I kept quiet. I should’ve left him right, I wanted to. I couldn’t. I loved this man too much. But I couldn’t get the thought off my head. I wanted him to feel the same pain I felt. Long story short, I kissed a co worker twice and felt so horrible about it I couldn’t follow through. Stopped talking to the guy and just tried to forget what happened with my boyfriend. Now I feel so guilty about making out with that guy and feel like I need to tell my ex about it. It haunts me a lot.