I’m gonna sound like a coward. I’m tired of the struggle. Nothing i do works. Even when it’s something already in motion. Once im involved it just goes to shambles. I’ve tried trading, fraud, music, I’m failing in school and trust me it’s not because im lazy. My family thinks I’m a failure. I feel like people just tolerate me now because they know me. I feel so valueless. I’ve considered suicide but my sister who constantly supports me would be broken. I can’t do this to her. I’m suffocating and I can’t catch my breath. I just need air and one W, just one. Please