This is my 5th years of marriage and 3 miscarriages, the last one was so bad I almost lost my life. Since then I’ve been trying not to get pregnant because I am really traumatized by the last experience but my husband is really putting pressure on me, at this point I’m thinking divorce. I don’t want to have a child that will take me out of the surface of the earth. It’s a cruel world anyway, I am probably doing a good thing by not bringing a child to this cruel world