Mentally I’m not okay. I’m tired and I want to slip into nothingness. I am worried my family would be sad but low key I need them to know how much I suffered and how much they could never really help me. This isn’t my first time thinking this and if I don’t do it now, one day I know I’ll find the courage to. I need it to end. Still and nothingness, that’s what I need. Maybe I’ll be happier then.