I am writing this to lighten my mood. I do not have anyone to talk to about this. My beloved boyfriend, for whom I would do anything, cheated on me again. He has cheated on me several times and continues to tell me that he will change. I know I should not have looked through his phone, but I did today. I did not see any chat because he deletes his conversations with girls, but I saw a voice recording he made while having sex with another girl. The girl was moaning loudly, and I could hear my boyfriend moaning and kissing the girl. When I asked him about it, he said it was not his voice, but his friend’s. His friend used his (my boyfriend’s) phone to voice-record sex with a girl. Imagine the lies. I have loved this person unconditionally and I’ve not cheated on them in the two plus years that we have been dating. And he had the audacity to deceive me, staring me in the eyes while telling me those lies. My heart hurts. I deserve to be treated better. I own and operate my own business. Despite my busy schedule, I always make time for him, cook for him multiple dishes per day, do house cleaning and laundry because I love him. This is what I got in return. Perhaps neither of us deserves the other. I would not want him to lose the respect that my friends and family have for him even after our breakup, so even if we broke up today, what happened would undoubtedly stay between us.