I’m at the point where I think suicide is an option, everything doesn’t make sense and it’s just the start of the year, financially I’m down, relationship is giving me sleepless night. I only have two friends all my life which I’m not their friends because they have their actual friends, a little health issues here and there, family isn’t really that perfect, academically I’m tired. New age in few weeks makes no single sense, at age 26. All I do is pray