I just remembered things that happened to me when I was about 6-8 years old. I did not remember all these while growing up and the memories just came rushing in, I am so overwhelmed. When I was younger I let my cousin (boy) touch me because of some agreement I don’t remember. One of my other cousins found out and threatened to tell my mom and my brother but I begged him not to and he also started touching as an agreement as well. Then years later I have a sex and my partner notices I don’t bleed or show any signs of pain. I am now confused if one of my cousins somehow disvirgined me when I was still a child. I feel so ashamed about it. I don’t know how I am going to tell my partner because he has questions but I don’t even have an answer for myself talk less of his questions. Growing up knowing all this while I was virgin till I met him but now looks like things happened to me that I don’t even remember or know about.😔 I am so confused