I just realized that don’t think I love my boyfriend yet I don’t want to lose him, I’m not the type to depend on a guy financially cause I run a successful business. Sex with him is not all that perfect but it’s manageable, he’s also not extremely that superhero boyfriend cause he cheated on me early last year but to be honest I’ve totally forgiven and forgotten. I don’t know why I don’t love him and I also don’t know why I don’t want to lose him, maybe it’s the fear of another body count