I have become a shadow of myself, people who know or see me think I’m living well and so happy, I’m not even close to that. I’m constantly thinking, my anxiety is through the roof, my smoking is also through the roof( I have a good flexible job. I’m comfortable to an extent) but I’m so numb and scared, just realized a lot of bad things happened to me growing up and my brain somehow managed to suppress and hide them but recently they’ve been popping up in my head and I’m just tired and scared. Only thing holding me back is my family, to be honest cause I see no point in this life thing sometimes (I’m a 24 years old and a female).