Any chance I get to be in a relationship, I sabotage it myself. It’s stupid and crazy that I’ve done it three times or so. I don’t know why I do it I just enjoy backing out and running away then the boys get tired of asking me out. The last one I took my hurt in peace and realized how awful it is from the guys that like me point of view. I accepted to be someone’s girlfriend today then when I got home I sent breakup text. This is someone I like very much and now we no longer speak, even if I cry all the time for another chance from God to put things right.