I haven’t been home in about a year plus and I promised my dad I was going to come. I’ve missed my siblings too and I want to see us all in the same space for the first time in about 3 years but I am scared cause of my mom. I’m her first born but so afraid, thank goodness she has my sis that’s like her girl among the boys. I am 29 but still incompetent to her. She doesn’t really beat me growing up but I wish she did instead. Will she even look at me once, Maybe I won’t travel home cause…