I’m so ashamed to accept the pain I feel because he told me lies, stupid lies like he was having issues with his marriage and blah blah. I stupidly thought there was a future but the honest truth was that he said that to every other girl before me and still to the ones after. Don’t get me wrong he was the sweetest and at that moment it was just what the doctor ordered but at the end of the day I was manipulated into it. Believe me, the ones you think are the most secure are actually the most manipulative. I can’t do without you but here we are like I’m the enemy because I’m adamant on what the future holds. Sigh