Literally my life is falling apart and I dunno what to do. I met someone who makes me happy and forget my problems whenever I’m with him but why do I feel a slight resentment towards him because I’ve never been cared for like that. He’s really nice to me, gentle and very caring and it just doesn’t make sense because why now when all I can think about is just to end it all and die. Why do I feel like he’s a distraction. I’ve been avoiding him and haven’t spoken to him for quite sometime. Although, I don’t have a solution to my problem and everyday I just wake up to think endlessly losing hours of sleep but I miss him. I really dunno what to do, please help me because I don’t want to come to a final solution of just killing myself.