2023 has been a lot, lost my mum this year. I still haven’t recovered, I just walk around smiling sheepishly while deep down I’m so confused and I cry most times in secret. I graduated this year, my relationship is hanging by the thread, well this is actually my fault I fucked up alot but I love her. God knows I try to find my place in life, I have value and all but financially I’m not doing well. I got a lot to do that are very necessary, these days my whole body feels heavy, like something is pressing me down. I only just hope(GOD), that’s the only thing that I hold and have now but shit ain’t easy, the depression keeps growing, I try my best to fight it but it’s not easy at all.