My boyfriend wants to break up with me because he thinks my sex life is weird and that’s because anytime I want to have sex with my boyfriend, I always tell him to act like he wants to rape me or he is raping me. I always want him to be aggressive or beat me up then I start crying and start acting like I’m suffering or being raped. I know it is weird but this is the only way I enjoy sex. Even when we want to do quickies I tell him him to be aggressive and act like he is raping me. I don’t wanna lose him but then that is the only way I enjoy sex
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I have the same issue, since I was in my early teens I’ve always fantasized about being raped by someone, I’ve alwayed imagined being forcefully asked for s*x. I don’t know if it makes sense but someone jokingly say they’re gonna rape me turns me on. Note: I wasn’t abused as a child and I never passed through any trauma.