My bestie and l had a threesome with a man. I honestly can’t forgive myself. It’s been difficult for me to get closer to God, I feel left out spiritually. I can’t even forgive my body. Deep down, I despise my bestie, I wake up everyday and it angers me that I have to see her. This is the most meaningless friendship I have ever been in. She’s very vile and manipulative. I had to seek counseling and I was asked to stay away from her. I still take full responsibility, I messed up. I pray God forgives me.