All my life I’ve been so angry with my dad for abandoning me, when I was 18 he tried to come close but the sentiments I had with him didn’t allow me. I was hurt I didn’t grow up like a normal child. Well I needed a father figure so at 21 I forgave him and started calling him dad. I’ve always been independent so I don’t ask him for anything, I just want him to be in my life, he died when I was 22 and it broke me even more. I mean this man had just come into my life. I started regretting why I was so stubborn at first when he was apologizing, I was devastated, I was beyond broken, I lost the essence of life. Even with my anger and hurts, deep down a girl loves her dad. So a year has passed and I’ve let it go, I found myself smiling again and being genuinely happy. My mum called me last week that she has something to tell me that it’s been disturbing her and she needs to get it off her chest, I jokingly told her to tell me on phone she refused. Ok. I visited. When I got there I saw them, my aunt and my mom with 2 elder people and a man I haven’t seen before. Then they broke the news, Shola is not your real dad. This man here is. The way my heart is breaking right now, I don’t know how to react I haven’t called my family infact I blocked everybody’s number. I’m writing this to get some sort of encouragement because god I want to commit suicide, I want to die. Too many questions at the same time, so all those times I was writing letters to my dad expressing how hurt I was for him not remembering my birthdays she knew he wasn’t my real dad and still allowed me go though such pain. Nobody deserves me. Only God