Anxiety! I love my mum, I hate to see her sad or worried. I wish I could take her worries away but playing the “daddy” card when financial issues hit. It really hurts me, I am currently down with chicken pox and malaria. I am so stressed out from school activities. We’ve basically been relying on loans for a while now, we do rollover every month. So this time, the loan was one day overdue and it doesn’t quite happen but it increased by #3k plus overnight. That really got me worried and mum wasn’t able to send the complete money so I borrowed from someone. Hoping to reloan, I told the person I’d repay before the end of the day and when I couldn’t reloan, I had to beg and promised today because mum assured me that she’d get it today. Things happened and the money didn’t enter today as well and she said she’d sell a phone that was given to her as a gift yesterday. Based on the circumstances surrounding the phone issue, I asked her not to sell it. We had a back and forth and I eventually told her okay. She got pissed and started talking about how she spends all the money she ever has on me, how my dad is irresponsible, how I’m stupid and ungrateful, how she’s planning to give me the money for convocation, how I forced her to repay yesterday because she would have waited to get the money whenever. Really! They were harassing me already, I’m sick so I couldn’t deal with it. I have begged for money from everyone I could beg from. People no longer borrow me money because of this kind of issues. I’m so sad tonight and my anxiety is at its max.