I never really enjoyed what I studied during undergraduate. I had to still pursue that same degree in order to be easily admitted for a post graduate program especially because I had a sponsor willing to cover the expenses but I’m struggling with it and I really have no interest in it at this point. I fear being a disappointment. I sincerely feel terrible cause I know people long for such opportunities but at the same time I’m not catching up at school and I’m depressed. I’m very grateful for everything but I’m loosing my mind.