I’m still suffering from a traumatic experience as a child (rape) by a church member and it is like sex is written on my forehead, that even my cousins wants to fuck me. Inferiority complex, forgetfulness, not knowing what I want, wanting to be perfect, every problem you can think of just name it. Sometimes I think I’m cursed, I want to work on myself mentally and spiritually. I just don’t know where to start from😓