My class’ graduating list would be out this week and I’m 99% sure I won’t be on it. My mum is super excited about me graduating already lol. I’ll be ending my life this weekend. I wouldn’t want to make her feel that pain of being disappointed in me.
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Trust me, its way better for your mom to feel the disappointment of you not being on the graduation list than for her to feel the pain of losing you.
For all its worth, she may even understand you better than you think.
I also got to realize that I would be graduating later than I expected and was ashamed to let my mom know about it. I didn’t let her know until the the results came out, then I just had to use scope and made it look like it was an error from the school on my results. Long story short, I’m almost done with my service now. Just 3 months left. And she was/is still supportive of me.
Please have a rethink.