How did I end up like this. Every single day I find myself drowning, drowning in my own messed up life. I just pray someday I don’t end it all because sometimes I just want to be free and liberated. Every single day problems upon problems. My family is weighing me down gradually, at 21 family problems and responsibilities are killing me. I didn’t ask to be born. I’m tired. I have tried, heaven knows. If someone had ever told me my life would be like this, I would never believe.