At 23 I have never dated or been with a boy before, I am hideous I know it. I also do not have any job currently, I was looking at my former classmates online most of them are doing one thing or the other. Depression is eating me alive, to make matters worse my only confidant who I could share all my problems with passed away. That loss is driving me mad, I really want to go and join her wherever she is because I miss her so much. When I look at others who are attractive, I wonder why God made me so ugly, why he hates me so much. I do not go to church neither am I interested in anything about God. I just feel like he likes some people and does not like some