Fell in love at 19 and it was the best thing. She was everything I wanted but she was also trouble with lots of trauma. Tried to be the good guy but all she was, was the bad girl. Something that I liked, if I thought she was that for just me but I was wrong. We fucked as much as everytime and she was my favorite sub (I cheated a few times too). Then i found out I wasn’t the only one but I was willing to still stay with her if she’d stop, probably the worst decision of my life. Broke up and “moved on” after 5yrs, been 2.5years since and I still miss her. I hope she misses me too.