My mum died recently, I was in school and could not even see her before she passed. I feel so empty and shattered because her death could have been avoided, when I saw her last in 2022 I never knew the next time I would see her would be in a coffin laying lifeless there. On the day of the funeral, I could not even cry or feel anything but after that day the tears do not ever want to stop. I keep feeling pity and sadness whenever I think of her. I wonder what I can do to see her again