I envy those people who have genuine friendships and relationships with people. I don’t have much friends and the ones I did have were just parasites and betrayals, one even got paid in exchange for me to have sex with someone she knew. She deceived me that the guy was her friend and that he liked me so much. God rescued me, been so grateful. Since then, I’ve found it hard to make friends because I can’t trust anyone. I’ve prayed, talked to myself and gotten therapy but still I can’t. It’s hard, most times I just cry because I know I didn’t deserve the pain I went through dealing with friends. I’m not perfect but I won’t have done the things they did to me. I just want to be happy and meet the right people but don’t know how to go about it.