Dissociation has been my coping mechanism for the longest. It’s been the only way I’ve been able to live through all the traumatic experiences life has thrown at me. From loosing my entire immediate family, to surviving a very toxic relationship, to dropping out of university cause of lack of funding, to doing hookups to make ends meet, to loosing my previous jobs and struggling to get employed again, and now loosing funds to an unprogressive business. I’ve managed to separate myself from these painful memories but this morning they all came rushing back and totally overwhelmed me. My reality is screwed. I really pray it gets better from here cause I’m tired.