I have been the fat friend for the longest time and I have always been insecure about my looks. I let men take advantage of me because of it, i was just too scared to end up alone because my parents will often say “ no man wants a fat girl”. Fortunately Or unfortunately I am not sure which, i got diagnosed with diabetes and lost about 30kg in 6 months. I have never looked better physically but mentally I am so anxious and scared. I have daily nightmares about being big again that i starve myself and count calories like crazy. I don’t know what to do i feel like i have traded one problem for another.