Lol, it’s funny how all my life, I’ve always felt like the odd one out, hence why I always lock myself up in my room because I always feel like I don’t fit in the outside world. Everything I have tried to do for myself have always found a way to crash but I keep my hopes up and give thanks to God for the littlest things but deep down, I am not impressed with the way my life has been for the last 7 years. Anyway, I used to date this guy who jokingly said I brought ill luck to him from the moment we started dating. I waved it off because I felt he was just pulling my legs but I held on to it because in as much as it was a joke, it still hurt. Now, my boyfriend just said he’s no longer interested in the relationship because since we started dating, things have been going downhill for him and I’m trying to stay as chill as possible because I don’t want him to see me breakdown but my heart is broken into a thousand pieces because what if they’re right? I don’t want to overwhelm myself with the thought of not being wanted by God or anyone else but my life has always sucked and I’m trying to be positive. Note: he’s been there for me financially and I owe him everything for that. I’m not hear to advise, I just want to pour my heart out so I don’t get consumed by my suicidal thoughts.