I have a boyfriend for about 2 years now, we love ourselves alot really, but there’s this guy that deflowered me 6 years ago, he has a way he manipulates me to bed with him at least twice a month. I have blocked, avoided him, none is working really, I really want us to stop but every time I try, I find myself with him again. If my boyfriend finds out, he would be broken, but I actually really do love my boyfriend, I hate myself for cheating on him