I don’t know why I keep fucking up with my boyfriend ( now my ex). I love this guy so much but my behavior or my attitude doesn’t show it and I’m trying so much for him to see I really changed because I messed things up the first time and he gave me a second chance but I messed things up again. Though he has his own wrong too but no matter what he does wrong too I apologize and the second time we dated I accepted knowing he had a girlfriend… but he left me and I can’t move on and I still love him and miss him so much knowing he has picked his girlfriend. I just wish and hope God can allow me move on from him