I am 23, to everyone I am a decent, well mannered and hardworking girl but when I look at the things I have done I feel so terrible, i have had 4 abortions since 17, my body count is 7, I smoke sometimes too. I cheated and still cheating with the guy that deflowered me, my boyfriend is such a good person he really doesn’t deserve a liar like me and we really do love ourselves, I want to spend the rest of my life with him but if he finds out my secret he will hate me so much and become a broken man💔