Whenever I have sex with a random guy I end up crying myself to sleep… It makes me realize how much I miss my ex boyfriend😭 Honestly!. I feel so numb I hate myself sometimes, I miss him but we had good times 5 years it 💔me .I appear okay out here but I cry so much I am now filled with hurt, anger. I just feel this way towards me not him at all! I’m trying self love but seems it does take time. I will mourn the relationship I will embrace all feelings & I hope i don’t give it the upper hand to drown me into deep sadness.