Just realized that in the process of playing it safe, I’ve been stagnant my whole life. I’ve missed out on important activities, experiences I should have gained from. I’ve become an over thinker, I already assume things before they come to fruition. I meet new people and I’m already self sabotaging friendships thereby causing myself pain before it actually happens. I really need to change my way of thinking and life. I need to start living. My mum won’t even let me leave the house without a thousand questions. I’m exhausted already. Sometimes I just want to disappear.